By the time the evening's ceremony arrived I found my ear had stabilised. Although it was still painful and I had lost most of my hearing on one side, I didn't feel it was getting any worse. My leap of faith seemed to be allowing a natural healing process without the need for antibiotics. I made an intention to further heal the infection with the help of ayahuasca. In the early stages of the experience I was given glimpses of how to heal using energy. By focussing my attention, allowing the heart to spread light, using the arm and hand as a tool to transmit this energy. As the medicine took hold more strongly I felt a spider crawling on my legs. My initial reaction was to brush it away with great rapidity. After all, there is one particularly dangerous spider in this part of the Amazon. It then occurred to me that the spider energy in my ear was ready to work and was calling in others to assist. I becalmed myself, placed my hand near my ear and focussed my attention. Although I had the sensation of spiders crawling on my head I remained placid and tried to send light into the right side of my head. However, all I could sense was a dull green glow, not the brilliant white light I'd seen in previous experiences. I sensed the presence of ajo sacha who seemed to be acting in the capacity of an operating theatre nurse. Just at this moment, in an icaro he was singing, Eladio mentioned her name. A following synchronicity occurred moments later when, on deciding to end the healing and energetically extract the spider, Eladio ended the icaro in the same instant.
Other synchronistic moments connected to the lightning outside happened about seven times. In the malestrom of the experience I would have the sense that lightning was about to strike and, on each occasion, it did. Not so strange when you consider the ability of some animals to sense such natural phenomena before they happen. Maybe ayahuasca tunes you in to electromagnectic fields in a more sensitive, refined way. Maybe I'm full of crap. I just don't know for certain.
Later, I found the strong smells of tobacco and vomit unbearable. Despite the considerable effort of moving around in the dark in that state, I decided I had to empty my bowl to get rid of the smell. I made it to the door of the maloka when, once again, I felt a spider on me. I tried to remove its big, fleshy body as gently as possible before returning to my mattress for my torch. Confused, I first arrived at my girlfriend's spot. Upon hearing her scream, which I thought was the other girl, Kristen, I went to my bed which turned out to be Asger's. Eventually I made it back without too much mayhem caused and carried my torch whenever I ventured outside in the pitch black conditions created by the moon's absence.
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